Dear Best Friend

Dear Best Friend,

Wow. How did we get here?

Facebook.

We met on Facebook; we just happened to comment on the same post.

We saw each other once for coffee before coming out to school, under the guise of just having a familiar face on campus. I think the truth was that both of us were terrified of not having anyone.

Our friendship was born out of necessity, that much at least has not changed. Well, that’s true for me.

I need your friendship like peanut butter needs jelly. Like yin needs yang. And like a fish need water.

In other words, I would be completely lost without you.

Maybe you feel the same about me, but it’s ok if you don’t.

I never expected to care about someone this much, especially not someone I just met a year ago.

I love how if you tell the story of when we first met, you’ll say that you thought I hated you… Nothing could be further from the truth.

It’s so funny how only two weeks into our friendship, we had our first fight. Over something silly, but seemingly huge at the time.

The truth is that even two weeks into knowing you, I understood that you would be someone very important in my life. And that scared me.

I didn’t want to need you or your friendship. I was happy with my walls, they kept be safe. I couldn’t let you hurt me because that’s exactly what I knew you would do…

Fast forward one year and we’re right back to where we started: Fighting.

The past three days have been the worst probably in my life. I thought you hated me. That I would never be able to call you my best friend again. That everything you said to me was a lie.

I truly, honestly believed that.

Maybe I was being dramatic or overreactive, but that’s what you do when someone you love ignores you.

You freak out, and think of all the worst case scenarios out there, and then some.

I thought about how you wouldn’t be there at my wedding, giving a killer toast. Or how I wouldn’t be your kids’ Godmother and teaching them how to bake amazing cookies.

I thought about how sometimes the only safe place in this world to me is your hot, little dorm room.

You inspire me best friend.

You have more than helped me to become a better person, and for that I cannot thank you enough. And I thought I wouldn’t have the chance.

I don’t know where we go from here, I just know it can’t be back, but hopefully forward.

I also know that I love you best friend, and no matter how many fights, years, boyfriends, or girlfriends may separate us, I will always hold that love in my heart for you.

Love,

Your Best Friend